My Opponent

Hey again,
 wanted to say tonight that I am not feeling those same nudges anymore about "pursuing my own dreams, worrying only about my own life." I feel like this was definitely an attack from the evil one. Thank you for prayers.

"Be sober, vigilant, because your opponent the devil, as a roaring lion, doth walk about, seeking whom he may swallow up." (1 Peter 5:8) I love this version because it talks about the evil one being my opponent. EEEEK! Something about that excites me beyond words. I'm gonna kick his toosh! "whom resist, steadfast in the faith.... (1 Peter 5:9a)

Another one of those Eric Ludy CDs (I love them, if you cant tell already), talked about the word sober, how it means to be always alert and watchful, not letting anything dull your senses; anything worldly. (That to me is alot harder then it sounds.) Can you imagine if everyone on one side of the battlefield was drunk? Who would win? 

Well, must go to bed, super excited for the months ahead. I can't wait for this battle. :) :)

*Christina

With the Power of Your name

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8HY-_f6RA8U

Just wanted to share this song by Lincoln Brewster.  When I heard it the other day, I felt like this was EXACTLY why I was going down there, EXACTLY my feelings, all put into a song. I love it!!

A hit by the Holy Spirit

I think another major step of my "training", as Eric Ludy puts it, I think was when I went to Teen Camp in July of this year. I just went on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday of that week cause I had to work, but Tuesday night's worship was really really intense. The Holy Spirit hit me so hard, and it felt amazing in one way but thinking about it after, I kinda felt bad cause I was supposed to be praying for the Teens there yet I sat and cried and cried and cried and got prayer myself. What was God thinking? I asked and I believe he said, "I can do what I want, when I want." Short and sweet. That smacked me in the face. :) I suppose I needed it though! I realized I was putting God in a box (or trying to anyway!). He really showed me who's who and what's what, as Myrraya likes to say. So, for that I am thankful. Even though it definitely gets uncomfortable, I cant wait to see what God has for my next step in training. <3

The mula involved :)

Hey, just a quick update! Tonight at the harvest party put on by friends from the church we raised $650 toward the trip. Plus a free airplane ticket. I'm in total awe of Gods goodness. :)

How selfish am I if I don't go tell the world? --Stand For You by Jonny Diaz

I think that the beginning of my training from God to be spiritually ready for this trip started at a MassHope home-school conference where a preacher named Eric Ludy spoke. He talked about a call he got about all the orphans in Liberia, Africa. There are kids there, 2 and 3 years old roaming the streets with no one to comfort them, no one to feed them. All alone. I cry at the thought of this! To think of one of my little brothers roaming the streets, falling down and getting hurt, really hungry, no blankets, and no one to say, "its ok, mommys here." or "daddy is here, its gonna be alright, we are gonna find something to eat." When Eric talked about that, I really think I was being trained. And have been continually since.

 I am always feeling like there is something inside of me, saying, 'you need to stay here, let some one else who doesn't have things here to care for, things here to do go do the missionary work, you don't need to.' And this makes perfect sense to me! I should stay, go to college, do my own thing, follow my own dreams. But then I think of all the little kids. That smacks me in the face. I have a savior who loves me sooo much, a wonderful God who created me and yet here I am being selfish doing my own thing. How selfish am I if I don't go tell the world? To think of people rotting in hell because no one told them.They are innocent, but have to rot there anyway! Jesus wants them and told us to go tell them. NOW!